NICK,
THIS IS GETTING SO FUCKING TIRING. STOP ASKING ME IF ITS IMPOSSIBLE. BECAUSE IT IS AND ITS NOT THE FIRST TIME I'VE TOLD YOU THAT. LIKE I TOLD YOU, YOU WILL FORGET.
just stop making me feel guilty. i'm sorry that this had to happen. even if he didn't come into the picture. if he didn't even exist in the first place. i doubt that anything would change. because it won't. there are some people you have feelings for. and there are some people you dont. and you're just someone who can be a friend.
i dont feel safe around you. and you're all about yourself. sure, i may not know you to say this kind of stuff. but this is the kind of impression you give to me. you come across as fickle minded and self centered who's all about stroking your ego. being with you will only make me feel so fucking insecure. i really dont need this. i rather not be in a relationship rather than in a relationship with someone i dont feel safe around. someone i dont really click with. i simply can't.
thats why i left the train.
you spoiled the friendship. because you dont want to be honest and forthright. because you dont want to trash it out. and keep telling me that you're over it. LIAR. dont tell me to get over it because there was nothing to get over in the first place.
sorry. but until you're ready, fuck off.